its different

its been awhile :).

i walk through different corridors, different classrooms, different lecture halls, studying different things, learning different aspects in life, meeting different people, doing different things after class, entering a different study place, parking at a different place, eating different things for lunch, seeing different people from last time, acknowledging different people from last time and understanding different things.

but theres one thing that would never change, yes. indeed. You know what it is.

its been long enough since ive dragged this on. being not who i used to be, the highly-spirited passionate young 16 year old lad that i used to be, im no longer the same. in fact, for the past two years, circumstances and sick incidences have caught up so much in my life that some things wouldnt be d same anymore.

i guess its normal for some, its sad for most, its considered unlucky for many, life-learning for others, but its fortunate to God. i guess we all have to grow up some day and learn things on the way.

i want to look to the future and look back when im older that i did the right things, said the right stuffs, chose the right paths, and loved the way i lived. i wanna be better. i wanna learn from my mistakes from the last chances that i was given. i wanna look to the future, pat my own shoulders and tell myself, "it was good that u went through everything u did last time in order to be who u are now" and i want God to say that i have made my daddy up there proud.

its funny how sometimes we've learned from our mistakes, yet we still make the same errors after a certain amount of time. just like my friend who said that i would turn back to the same old me after awhile, i guess sometimes its inevitable. but so be it that he said that; let me take it as an advise from him instead of sulking over it and think that i would always be the same.

because in the end, it is my life. its the way i want to shape it. not anyone else. and nothing is impossible through him. for "i can do all things through Him who strenghtens me."